I've been there
True life: Defeating depression.
As a teenage girl I have to deal with a lot of the same issues as other teenagers, but what sets me apart slightly from my friends is that for the last two years I've been living with depression. Most people have the misconception that depression is something that someone can “snap out of” and just “get over”, but the point I want to get across is that depression is a disease that attacks your mind, your emotions and eventually your body.
When I was in second year, I was bullied badly by a few lads in my class; the guy I thought I was in love with didn’t care about me and all my friends had turned on me. These things all happened at the same time, and left me with a sense of rejection, which, ultimately led to my depression. It took a few months for my disease to develop into severe depression and it was only when I was close to ending my own life that I realised I had a problem. At that stage I was in such emotional and physical pain that it actually hurt to move. Depression was sucking all the energy out of my body.
Emotionally, I felt helpless and worthless, like I was in a dark hole. I felt like I was behind a wall looking at all the happy normal people in the world. I thought I was all alone behind this wall because I was different; because I had a disease and because I wasn't happy. In the end I knew that I didn't really want to die but I wanted this vicious, unbearable, insufferable pain to leave me alone. However, what I had that most people who chose to end their own life don’t have, was a clear sense of hindsight - If I died what would happen to my family? What about the future I could have?
I believe you make your own destiny, and if you chose to live as a victim (which, believe me, I lived as for a very long time), you will never get ahead in life. If you can, pick yourself up, get help, go to counselling and do whatever it takes because at the end of the day everybody has the potential to do great things no matter what their situation. It is just up to you to use what you have to live up to your full potential.
I don’t condone suicide because it doesn’t solve anything, but I am not one of those people who look down on those who commit suicide. I have great empathy for the people that do it.
I suppose the purpose of writing this is to show people that there are other ways to deal with things. I urge people to PLEASE get all the help they can if they are in a dark place. If you do end your own life, your pain may be over, but the pain of your loved ones will live on forever.
Tragically, you will never have the chance to explore a possibly bright future.
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Posted by : iolatunji - 29 days ago
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